Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Operas and Concerts GALORE!

A quick post to vent some of my immense excitement for the following Operas and Concerts which are coming to the Sydney Opera House these few months.

1. Carmen - Bizet (French Opera) - (15 Jan till 30 March) - REALLY WANNA SEE THIS, especially because I found out I missed a Free performance of it =__=

2. Madame Butterfly - Puccini - (7 Jan till 3 March) - Need to book this one soon!

3. Barber of Seville - Rossini - (4 Feb till 29 March) - Looks interesting too!

4. Ray Chen playing Brahms' Violin Concerto and Tchaikovsky Symphony No.5 - ( 10 Feb till 14 Feb) REAL SOON!

5. Edo de Waart conducting Rachamaninoff 3rd Piano Concerto (played by Joyce Yang) and Rachmaninoff Symphony No.3 - THAT one's going to be EPIC! (7-11 April)

6. Tim Minchin versus the Sydney Symphony - (24-27 March) I have absolutely no idea who he is, but he has MAD reviews for being a brilliant singer, pianist and comedian.

Could probably watch most of the concerts for $32 and the Operas under $70. The seats won't be fantastic, but I'm definitely bringing those Opera Binoculars! =D

So excited. If anybody wants to go watch any of these with me, comment or give me a shout on facebook. I'm going to be poor, but hey, I think it'll be worth it!

But what if it doesn't work out?

There are always moments in your life when you begin to question your dreams. At times, it comes from people who are closest to you, steering you clear from what you have always believed in. Sometimes, whatever you're working on, just isn't giving you the results you want.

Today, M came home after talking to a family friend about my GAP years and my dream to go overseas to study music in America; how even if all else failed, I would go back to Medicine and there were plenty of places which accepted mature students. The family friend tells her this case where a girl did the exact same thing as me, tried music for a while, stopped and now is finding it excruciatingly hard to get into Medicine. They're asking her to sit the HSC again. I know, right? WTFRICK? :O

It's not the story which bothered me. I knew it's a pretty ridiculous story and I'm sure with my ATAR, as long as I don't wait too long, I can get into the course I want to. It's the fact that my mum said that "All those years, just wasted. You better have a good think about what you're doing".

See, the thing is, I never really have a good think about what I'm doing. Yes, I plan it. Yes, I think about it and ask for people's advice. But I've always...just gone with the flow. My teacher suggested that, since I like music and have some talent for it, that I should consider it and see if it gets me anywhere. So far, it has! I've always felt like He's up there guiding my path, holding my hand and I have complete faith that it's what He's doing now. I've always just believed that with the right amount of hard work, some God-given luck and my charming smile, that I would be able to achieve what it is I want.

When I thought about the possibility that Colburn might not accept me, that I may just end up teaching little kids piano at home, or doing some Commerce degree and finding it hard to find a job, or having not enough money to even get a girl to marry me and start a family, I started to get real scared. I wondered if what I was doing was going to be worth it. In a way, I'm really following this path drawn up by my Him and my piano teacher.

I know it's dangerous to have doubts. But it's been my dream! I dream of being a conductor one day, doing a piano recital once in a while, playing some Chamber Music and teaching some students at Festivals and a University somewhere. It'll be hectic but I'd be living what I love. I just don't know what I would do if it all suddenly began collapsing on me. It's scary to think there's a chance this could happen. But then, I guess, that's what faith and hope's for. I gotta stay strong. I gotta hang in there and just do what I gotta do. The rest will sort itself out. I pray.

My other concern is for the Competition I have to audition for real soon. I got called two nights ago that there is to be no more changes in the repertoire. That was like a massive WOAH WH-WHAT?! I had really wanted to change my repertoire especially because there are 3 out of the 7 pieces listed that aren't prepared. I was planning on changing two of them and leave the 1 to work my ass on. That '1' is the Liszt Dante Sonata. It's a BEAST of a piece. 17 minutes of music from heaven and hell, based on the Divine Comedy by Dante Alighieri. Despite my high hopes for this piece, my teacher, though impressed with how quickly I'm learning it, said "Even if you were Ashkenazy, you wouldn't be able to learn it all and prepare it by the 10th". I knew she was right. But where's the hope?!

I'm the type of person who has hope in everything. Federer could be losing straight sets but I'd still have hope that he'd pull through. Our volleyball match could be doomed even before we even started and I'd still believe we would win. It could be raining for the whole week, but on the night before our beach outing, I'd still believe that the sun would come out. Does that make me a sucker for miracles? Well, perhaps. I believe in miracles. I believe that things do come around. I can't help it.

She's suggested that I pull out at the last minute. I'd still prepare like a crazy chicken but I'd pull out. I'm a bit reluctant to do so. So I'll see how it goes. I want to play. I want to perform. But I'll probably need a miracle.

Whew, I feel a lot better now. So many thoughts racing through my head. I was going to start expanding on some of the Luxembourg stuff, but I think I'll do that next time. I need my beauty sleep!

:)

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Old and new records

It's really been quite some time since I've last blogged.

It stuck me a little while ago how fascinating it is to go back and read something you've written a while back. It could be a week, or even almost half a year ago - as with my last post. It's fascinating how much has changed, how much has happened since the last time I made an entry and I feel like I need to keep recording this down; because life is such an adventure, eventful and exciting, with unexpected twists, surprises and delights. I don't want to forget it all.

Since my last post, I've been to Germany, visiting a small town called Bad Bertrich where a piano festival run by Professor JP was held. We stayed in apartments, cooking for one another on some days, and eating out on others (we mostly got shouted those dinners out - from a German Barbeque to the most wonderful dinner MH shouted us at her hotel). Stress was quite a factor on most days. We would wake up at 8.30 every day, grab some bread from a small bakery, rush to the practice rooms, do a few hours there, then have lunch, back to practice rooms (or exploring, as I like to do), attend Masterclasses (or BE in the Masterclass *scary*), drift off into sleep at the concerts, finally have dinner and enjoy pretty much the only 'free' time we had - watching Supernatural and Modern Family!

Sometimes we would go to the German bathhouse. Their idea of a bath is pretty much like a HUGE pool (indoors and outdoors) with some heavy water sprayers here and there and much warmer too. There were hot tubs, but I won't discuss that to much detail. Those who have heard my German spa story would know what I mean :/ I actually got my right ear completely blocked by the water there when I went for a swim - yeah, you could literally do laps.

A big highlight was the wine tasting tour the Festival paid for. We woke up early to catch a bus that took us to a bigger town by the river. From there we were taken by a small ferry to a certain village along the river where the wine tasting was. Our organiser MS took us to this wine tasting house and the best part of the day arrive. LOTS and LOTS of wine! They just KEPT coming! Bottle after bottle. The winemaster would take out a few bottles, pour some into everyone's glass and tell us in German what it was - we'd taste and if we didn't like it, there was a big glass for us to pour the wine we didn't want. Later, he put some bread, cheese and ham on the table for us to eat, served with lard. Lard is very very popular in Germany and it doesn't seem to make them any fatter! A lot of the Germans had big bellies - but I honestly think that's because of the beer.

Meeting Professor JP would probably be the biggest highlight of my trip. You'd think a 75 year old would be walking slowly with a crane, maybe suffering from hearing loss and even some memory loss. This man had more energy than us, cracked jokes every five minutes, sculled beer like it was water and loved food almost as much as he loved music. But most importantly, JP, as scary as he initially appeared to be, took care of us like we were his own children. The thing that I admire most about JP is his attitude to music and teaching. It's like he is a great big ball of love. In his playing, his way of teaching, you could tell that everything he did was for the love of his art and his students. At the end of one particularly difficult masterclass for me, he said something I will never forget. He said, "Chris, I wouldn't spend so much effort and time teaching you this piece if I didn't believe you could do it." At the time, I was at the end of my wits, trying to play this to his standards, applying rubato and all the changes he wanted me to do. I loved every lesson that I was in.

And though I may put all of this experience in a fair light. There were moments where I was just completely overcome with stress and disappointment. MH is an amazing teacher and mentor, but there were moments when I felt that she was very harsh on us, especially during the festival. It was my third Masterclass with JP and I played a piece by Beethoven which I had practice so long and so hard for. I completely messed it up. I was so frustrated with myself, especially because I couldn't do correct all my rhythmic mistakes nor play the piece properly for the man I was trying to impress most. The Master class did not go very well, and to make matters worse, instead of being comforted, I got told off even more for making a mess of the piece. I was more angry at myself than anything. Why couldn't I play it well?! All that hard work for what?! I walked alone back to the practice rooms to correct my mistakes and halfway through I just couldn't hold it in any longer and everything I was feeling just rushed out of me.

So you see, it wasn't all happy fun and games. But I guess, like with all stormy nights and dark tunnels, the light's always just around the corner and for me, that was winning the Audience 1st prize at the Student Recital.

Other highlights would probably be the lush green scenery all around us. We were in the middle of a valley, surrounded by really green trees. The Germans take great care with their flowers, arranging them in bright colours on their window sills, road lamps and at the side of the street. It's amazing how much flowers and colours can do to liven up the place.

Anyway, that would be a quick summary of my first 2 weeks in Germany. I figured I'd do a bit of the past and recount a bit of the present - balance things out a bit.

Went down to North Sydney College of TAFE on Friday to apply for a Chemistry Course. I didn't do Chemistry for HSC (No sciences :P) and my mum's condition for me to take another GAP year was to do the Chemistry course. It's only for 6 months, 4 hours a week. It was to fill a pre-requisite for Monash University and hopefully, with a good UMAT and a good interview, there's a chance I could get in. Well, that's what my mum wants anyway. I'm still gunning for my music thing!

The people there were very nice and the Chemistry teacher seems like a pretty cool teacher. I kinda feel like I'm back in High school again. And it's a bit exciting to be honest.

Saturday was a complete waste of a day. I spent it watching Castle (GREAT SHOW BTW =D) and Psych (another awesome show). I think I'm really into detective and crime mysteries at the moment. I think I'm starting to like Castle more, especially for its extremely witty lines, the great connection between the cast, the nature of the murder mystery and the relationship between Castle/Beckett and Castle/Family. So fun to watch!! =D

Sunday - Youth Group (Don't forget the Lyrics/Musical Chairs game I invented turned a little too competitive) then Church and then lunch, coffee with Connie at Parra.

One thing I did find out about myself was that since my Europe trip and my huge dilemma about my career, I've grown to like talking about deeper subjects. Although games and sport (esp the tennis) still interest me, after talking to so many people overseas about their cultures, their lives and their philosophies of life, I've found that I've matured and that I love talking about culture, art, different ideas and travelling. It's hard to explain and though I try to deny that it's true, I think I've matured even more? I don't know, but I like what I see when I try to envision what I would like to be my future. I just hope I can work hard enough to achieve those things and that He will be there to give me those things that will bring me happiness.

I think it's almost time for me to go to bed. I'm trying to do a post more often. With photos and stuff soon.

:)